Are you touched?

Happen to read this from a frend's blog. The story is so touching ...

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said," You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company." Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me," He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together." I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you," I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly. She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me," You are not a man!"At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me, her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me," He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?" This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said," I remember." "You carried me in your arms," she continued," So, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning."I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention as explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly," Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face. On the third day, she whispered to me," The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there."

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer. On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her," It seems not difficult to carry you now."She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed," All my dresses have grown fatter." I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.

I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it s time to carry mum out," he said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said," Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old." I held her tightly and said," Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy."I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her," Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious." She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. "You got no fever," she said. I moved her hand off my head. "Sorry, Dew," I said," I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote -- I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

New Office !

Finalli the reno is over! Last fri we r all shifted to our new office (formerly used to be our production hall).
Tadahhhh!!!! Tat's my new working desk! :):)
So sparkling clean everywhere. Hahaha…. All credits go to my thorough cleaning and wiping ya. Gd job! Hee*:p

Plus plus, now I got a bigger and newer chair. Just the right size for me! It’s simply too comfy to rest ur butt on. Feels shiok men…!!!
The only unappealing thing is, my new office now looks like a maze.... Will get loss easily ya. :P

Mid-Autumn Festival

It's mooncakes season of the year again! :)
This is my 2nd time celebrating this festival with Bernard. As promised, he bought 2 veri cute paper lanterns with mickey mouse print on it and several packs of candles for us to celebrate...
We were happily playing our candles and lanterns @ one of the garden in Telok Blangah Crescent near his house after our Pico meeting...
Wohhh....haha.... So much funz and laughter we had.
Arhmm... I realli feel so fortunately & blessed to have such a thoughtful and caring bf. He dotes on me alot and is always there 4 me when i'm sad. In fact, he's always there to cheer me up. U knoe... where else can i find such a lovely guy? Though sometimes without deny tat i'm a big bully, he never get angry wif me at all. He's always so patient towards me. I just love him more & more each day n i love being together wif him no matter where we r.

Superstar!

Opps... I was away from my blog for quite a while....

Heyhey, now I'm back to bloggerhood again !
Guess a lot things happened lately...
Singapore's no. 1 Superstar is Kelvin Tan(Chen WeiLian)! Yeah!!!! :) I am super happy for him. I was at the Singapore Indoor Stadium where the Final was held. Tho' it wasn't as overwhelming as the Singapore Idol Final, the atmosphere there was terrific too. Lots of fans & supporters were there to support their superstar contestants. Weilian's voice indeed touched & moved thousands of souls that night. Alth' he's blind, he doesnt give up on his dreams or resign to fate... For that, I realli admire him. His talents and performance are far better than i've expected, how could anyone not give him the winning vote?
On the other side, Kelly Pooh(Pang JiaLi) did a great job too. Beside her powerful vocal, she looks so lovable, gorgeous & dazzling, how could anyone not give her a vote too.
Hahaa.... Ya. So no matter who you vote for, both of them will get the chance to release an album individually. See... so in the end, it is a win-win situation for the contestant. A bit " bo liao" rite... It's only the"Superstar"title that matters.
Wellwell, isnt it a bit pointless to held the final in this case. If the board only wanna have one Superstar, then in the 1st place... it shouldnt have been a competition against the genders. Well, i do feel that the competition is a bit unfair. Anyway, it is over too.
Gd for Kelvin & Kelly. :)

I am a 9%!

Today marks the beginning of Amway New Fiscal Yr!
It's Amway 30th Anniversary in Malaysia!
I was being told that FY'06 bonuses and rewards are just beyond my imagination. They are juicier & more sensational than ever b4! Can you imagine tons of $$$ flowing endlessly into your pockets while you go on holiday to some exotic countries, eating those finest cuisines & delicacies, being treated & served with 6 Stars services.... This kind of 1st class luxurious services are all thoughtfully planned and fully-paid for you. Who woudnt be tempted? Who wouldnt want it?
I cant denied that i am not tempted... If given a choice, i will definitely Grab it, Cling on and Not let go.
Certainly, rewards dont come free. This is paid off with sheer hard work and lotsa perseverance...
Being a 9% , i am goin' to make sure that my current grp doubles & grow bigger to qualify for wat is called a "Quality Life". "Never give up & we will see our dreams come true", that's wat my boyboy told me. I believe in him.
I need lots of support & motivation. People pls have some faith in me. Everyone can do it, tell yourself you can, you can, you definitely can.
Dont give up even though u hate doing it, cos' there's a veri generous rewards at the end. Dont give up while u r half way to success ya. Life is tough, it is even tougher if you give up.
So Work hard & work smart!

Sense

It has been a while since i last blogged... Time has been pasting so slowly, life seems dull lately. Nothing much achieve, nothing being accomplish. There's a sense of emptiness from within. I feel rather dead. Sometimes i realli donno wat i am doing day in & day out. I do it for a sense of responsibility but never for interest. This responsibility gets heavier each day and i get more tired...

The Secret to Happiness!

Juz wanna share wif readers who visit my site this little secret that one of my friends fowarded to me. It is rather meaningful and no doubt this is wat we r living for each & everyday.

Begins.....
One day, one friend asked another, "How is it that you are always so happy? You have so much energy, and you never seem to get down." With her eyes smiling, she said, "I know the Secret. I'll tell you all about it, but you have to promise to share the Secret with others. "The Secret is this: All I do is live a simple life, have some really good friends, a happy family and enjoy nature. I have learned most of the time I don't need half of what I think I do. With the above thoughts, I learned the 'Secret' to a happy life."
The questioner's first thought was, "That's too simple!" But upon reflecting over her own life, she recalled how she thought a bigger house would make her happy, but it didn't. She thought a better paying job would make her happy, but it hadn't. When did she realize her greatest happiness? Sitting on the floor with her nephews and nieces, playing games, eating pizza or reading them a story. Now you know it too! And now I pass the Secret on to you. Once you get it, what will you do?
Please tell someone the Secret too.

For those readers that have too many thoughts in their minds. Have some reflections, do you think you can change for the better and live happier each day?

Marina Carnival

Our adventures @ Marina Carnival on Sunday 14th Aug'05. Our 1st time on Army Tank & Truck. It was also our 1st time entering Naval Ship 207(Endurance). My boyboy was posing beside the Navy Helicopter on board the Ship. He looks so smart. Haaahaa...
and there are many many more events that day... It was really an eye opener for us. :)

Following that, we assembled @ Marina Field to watch the Civil Defence Display on Fighting against Terrorism. It presented our outstanding Arm forces. Include forces from the Air & Land. It truly showcasted their bravery & courage.
There was also live bombing actions and sheltering. And also, not forgetting the magnificant aerial display by the F16. It was truly an event not to be miss! Everyone there was so engrossed in the performance. ***Indeed a Splendid Performance! :):):) Thumb Up!

Finalli we witnessed the grand finale -- the fireworks display. It is the French Theme Fireworks. That's marked the end of this year's National Day Celebration -40th Anniversary.

Hopefully next yr will have even more spectacular displays and more adventurous events going on in Marina. Persevere the gd job SAF! :)

Time to move on...

Sometimes the feelings for others can be so utmost intricated.
Why must it be so complicated? :(
When ppl are together, they do not cherish the time being together. They choose to ignore, choose not to listen, choose to criticize, choose to hate... but when the someone is gone, they begin to miss the someone's presense.... Slowly, they begin to realise the gd, the beautiful side of the someone. How they wish they could turn back the time to be together... but sometimes it is too late. Only then they will realise that they had lost someone. Someone they keep in their heart but never on the mind. It takes so long for this kind of ppl to comprehend... I hate this kind of ppl. When will this kind of ppl ever be enlighten? Sighz.... It is just time to move on...

Baby Victoria !

This is Jasmine's baby gal. Little Victoria is 2 days old. Veri chubby huh... :)

My graduation in Australia's Capital - Canberra

I am finalli off from Books!!!! Yeah!!!!! :) So happy, no need to study anymore.... hehee:p

Photos Taken in Sydney Aquarium

BIG FISH! :)

Photos Taken in Sydney

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Arrival in Changi Airport Terminal 2

1 week past... And We r back in Singapore again! We finalli touched down in Changi Airport at 10pm after a 7hrs flight. Time flies so fast when we were in Australia.... Our holidays has ended... We were all tired but we had enjoyed ourselves so much! This trip has brought us lots of unforgettable memories.... like....
1)This being our 1st ever furthest trip from Singapore.
2)Sydney is such a wonderful and scenic place.
We visited Sydney Chinatown, StarCity Casino, Sydney Opera House, Harbour Bridge, Cruise Ride, Skytower, Oz Ride, Sydney Aquarium, The Rock Market etc and many more... Not forgetting that Sydney is also a tourist paradise. We shop a lot and visit lots of Cafe, restaurant and fastfood outlets. Clothes there r trendy and hip. Prices are reasonable too. Winter wear is especially cheap during this period. A veri gd bargain.
However, food in Sydney is not as economical. The price of food in cafes and restaurants are slightly higher as compared to Singapore. This might be due to their high standard of living there.
Overall, I still like the lifestyle in Sydney. :)
4) Our closest encounter with Kangaroos & Koala Bears in Featherdale WildLife Park.
3)The bitter cold winter in Blue mountains and Canberra. (we were all fighting against the coldness in our only winter coat) Ruth and me even caught a cold there... That's where we set up our 1st fire place.
4)My 1st visit to University of Canberra. Our photo was published on "The Canberra Times" on the 28th Jul'05 for UC graduation. Greatest Memorial in our whole trip.

On my way to Australia!

I am so excited... Will be on my Quantas Flight to Australia in 3 n 1/2hrs time!!!

This is going to be my 1st furthest trip i have ever travelled in my life. I am going wif bernard, eileen & ruth. We will be there for 8days.... only be back in S'pore on 28th Jul'05.
Destinations that we r going --- 1st: Sydney City, 2nd: Blue Mountains & 3rd: Canberra.
Now it's Winter in Australia... Hopefully the weather wont be that freezing cold for us....
Looking forward for tis trip.

Ous Bon Voyage! Au Bientot! :)

Baby Isaac !

Amy & Faraz's 1st baby was borned on 070705, 2054hrs at Thomson Medical Centre. His name -"Isaac Imansyah". Cute & Adorable Isaac weighs around 2.8kg... :)

Cant believe that they already have a baby! Time flies... still remember those days in school when we hang & fool around. Skipping lectures to sleep in sport hall, copying tutorials in the fast food canteen, posing around the school to take photo while doing projects. And we r the "yaya" grp with the "yaya" attitude.

Still remember our attachment in the NYP Posbank. That's one of the most unforgetable time. We are so fun & witty. There's one incident when she cry out of sudden at counter 2 as her cash box cant balance with her a/c... Everyone in the bank got a shock, even BM. We all take turn to calmed her and we manage to found the person that drawn excess $ from her counter. That's person happen to be a lecturer from SHS. Wat a crap she is... big crapper! Still trying to denied when we approached her. Her "Over-Conscientiousness" betrayed her. In the end, she have to hand out the $100 excess she got. Got it~!!!! ;p

And Those were the days... Now she is a mother. Makes me feel that age is catching up... i am getting old, not that young and hyper-active as in the past anymore...

I'm back!

Haven't update my blog for the past few days... Just came back from KL on Mon morning after attending the Amway Sales Convention'05 @ Sunway Stadium. The whole indoor stadium was filled wif more than 18,000. Realli crazy & overwhelming. We were rather exhausted but thinking back we still benefited something from there. So it's worth the effort to travel all the way there...

Sometimes, i do dream of being a speaker for such a rally. So grand and you have lots of ppl cheering & clapping for you. It feels so honorable being a center of focus in a big stadium like this. Hmmm... me & my dream again. Nah... :)

Hopefully in these few years, my Amway biz will grow bigger & out of this small but mighty Singapore. Grrr.... gotta plan wisely this time round. Hope writing in my blog helps to remind me of my goal. Think i've always procastinate whenever i think of this BIG THING "mlm". Why... i realli donno y?? :0

It is definitely workable, the plan work excellent! But, it is the ppl that dont work.

TIME to realli look into & find the gold in it. Ya... :p Meeting no one today. Most probably will go home and share my thoughts of my Business again. Hopefully he will enlighten me! :)

It's finalli Friday!

This week passes so slowly... Finalli it's my favourite day of the week. :) Yeah!!!
Too bad... Bernard is in Ipoh so he can't accompany me tonite. Gonna find my own activity ya... Hmm... Will be meeting up with sharon after work today to accompany her to the money changer to chg some ringgit. Tomolo we'll be going to KL together. The bus is leaving @ 6:00am in the morning... Gosh! So early.... Gotta wake up at 5:00am then. Guess I can't hang out late tonite, need to Zzz early if not tomolo will look like a Panda. :p
We will be meeting up with Bernard tomolo when we reach KL, can't wait to see him. Miss him for days...
Sighz.... have been Zzz late these few nites. Last nite slept around 2:00am. Yesterday was Juliana's wedding @ Sharaton Ballroom. Veri nice hotel with romantic ambience. Banquet only end around 10.45pm, reached home around 11.30pm, managed to catch the result of Channel U -Superstar Semi round. It was a surprise tat Kevin(the blind singer) got into the final 16th as his performance for the semis is not that gd. Anyway, wish him luck. I like him courage & perseverance despite his disability. Thumb-up for him! :)

Alrite, that's all for now...

Juliana's Wedding Banquet.

That's my fav. BSB Brian Littrell.